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He lies there waiting for my return, 

As I walk out the door my ache for him starts to burn.

Resigned to his embrace, filling my head full of lies, 

I touch his face and look deep into his eyes. 

His cold hand brings a pain from the start and pulls me in until everything goes dark. 

There is a constant need that never ceases, distorting my world in agitated ferment.  

Now that I'm back in his arms, clutching at a dream, 

My deceptive words, again, are never quite what they seem.

He sits tainting every thought that I make, 

His presence is more than I can bear to take. 

I try to think of everything but the song he once sang, 

But he always returned, no matter how far I ran.

As our lives entwined, we fell into the red sea,

And I forever try to escape the hold he now has upon me. 

We both want to leave but we both need to stay, 

I cannot be without him even for a day.

He purges all the life that is left in my soul,

Yet brings me such calm when my heart has a hole. 

It never pains me any more, a sweet familiar ache, 

That reminds me life is a passion I've yet to create. 

He is a poison that creeps slowly, then consumes your life whole,

Leaving you breathless in the sky, taking heaven’s toll.

He falls from the past into the mess that we created,

A void of deep yearning that is never sated,

He eternally looks for something hidden in my eyes;

A carnal need for each other that we cannot disguise.